3 Fast Things
I’ve always been into health and fitness. I’m interested in longevity and the associated healthy lifestyles. I’ve linked to the video down below in the WATCH section, but I heard this podcast the other day which has shifted my thinking about fasting and its benefits. I’ve dabbled with it before but never really knew what I was doing or why. If you have any interest in it, listen to it and hit me back to chat.
Funnily enough, I hit a pivot point on this health and fitness and fasting stuff while was gluttonously stomping my way around South Korea on a food tour recently. I went to Korea for a couple of days with my buddy and my plan was to do some sort of gross Mukbang for content. But I started to feel a bit too yucky about it. I love food, but one must respect it. You can stay tuned for that YouTube video regardless.
I’ve been rinsing relationship content of late. Really intellectualizing the hell out of my experiences with men and love. The short and pointy of my discernment is that I’ve traditionally been an anxious attacher, but can express avoidant traits to avoid intimacy. However, I’m graduating into secure. Go me. The other wave I’m riding is that the right connection or person will stay and be able to figure these differences out with you.
1 Slow Thing: On Loneliness
Can I just premise this post with something: I’m totally fine.
I don’t even know what I’m going to write yet but whatever it is could accidentally make some readers worry for me. But that is not my intention. My intention is always to share sneak peeks into my mind as honestly as I can and sometimes they get a little gloomy. We all feel negative emotions and entertain murky thoughts, it’s just that I don’t compartmentalize like many do. I like to get it all out in write-ups.
(Of course I appreciate the care and concern though :)
Alright, with that all said, let’s talk about my experiences with loneliness, lol.
I’ve had a few spouts of loneliness in my 36 years of breathing. The two most memorable being in my first year of university, and then my sixth year living abroad. Both experiences spawned from a lack of community and support network. Both flared up to breaking point at the termination of a short-lived friendship. And both saw me binge-eat my way through the emotional chaos. But only one of the times did I develop an addiction to Kelloggs Crunch Nut Clusters.
I was in London over July and August this year. I was house/pet-sitting my way through the healing process of a break up. Alas, I felt a few of these unpleasantly familiar sensations again.
I was a long way from my community, navigating a relationship breakdown, and of course, had a sharp eye on the supermarket’s cereal aisle.
At first, being so far from home felt refreshing. My life is but a balancing act of my job, my passion projects, my health and my relationships. So with less people to take up the time I usually spend on the relationships part of my priorities, I felt a surge of inspiration to do and explore and create. I had time!
I was writing and video-making and thinking and exercising and chatting to strangers. I was buzzing over there in Britain.
But that sense of free rein subsided after a while.
I love spending time alone, but what is the worth of time alone when that’s all you have? How can you appreciate a holiday if you don’t work? Ya know?
I wasn’t getting authentic connection injections and that’s a party platform for depression. Depressive states cause procrastination. Lack of motivation. Sad thoughts. Less respect for oneself. Loneliness. I could feel it tickling at my equilibrium.
Now don’t get me wrong, I had an awesome couple of months in the UK. I met some great people. Put myself out of my comfort zone. Had some good runs of creativity. And importantly, I also decided that I hate paying rent (and I’m going to make not paying rent part of my identity).
(p.s. Here’s the video I made all about how I plan to never pay rent again.)
It’s just that I felt loneliness poking into my side, so I bolted back to Australia quick smart. Where, for now, I’m feeling good. My sense of purpose and drive is rearing its balding head. I’m back with my people. The antidote: community.
Watch
Watch the video pleeeeeease.
Upcoming Shows
Actually a couple of comedian mates and I have started a room in Marrickville. First show was a sell-out hit and next show is gonna be even better.
Check out/follow the Instagram page, buy a ticket or two and come along.
Tuesday 24th October
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Watch/listen: I’d be so interested to hear your thoughts on this video.